My literacy standard has worsen dramatically in recent years and I have almost forgotten how to write! Everytime I read my blog entries written almost 8 years ago, I wondered since when I stopped leaving time for reflection in this space. This space I used to share about my life, my thoughts, my ups and downs.
Indeed, thoughts come and go, and I like to just think and bury them deep in the bottom of my heart. But only to share with my closest ones (family and closest friends). Perhaps, I was too busy, too preoccupied with many other things in life, which, looking back, only some were significant and most were not. Insignificant ones took most of my time since 2005. Somehow, what supposed to be insignificant did mean something to me. It was by going through such, then I have something to compare with so then I know what are significant.
(Significant ones - meeting my husband, getting married, fixing new home, getting ready for BB's arrival, motherhood, my new job) (Insignificant ones - boring previous job, getting in and out of pointless relationships)
In recent years, I have become unpredictable, I dislike following the norm, to do what people would expect me to do, this unpredictability manifests in many ways, how I deal with my career/ friends/ men... One of my ex-boss said to me ,"真係估你唔到。" (He was referring my speedy marriage and pregnancy) I thought to myself, "咁易俾你估到就唔係Amanda喇！"
Being unpredictable means now I don't like disclosing too much of myself in this public space. I like giving room for some guessing.
