As one goes through life, one sees increasingly many departures, what's left and what's coming and the consequences following such departures are hard to predict. One may not always be happy as one may have already had built a relationship with the ones who departed, but then one just has to accept the reality and let it be.
It does not feel easy to be mis-understood. It's hard to control/change others' view as very people are very often very subjective. Not many people are able to put themselves in others' shoes.
Oh well...so be it.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Monday, January 14, 2008
2012
4 yrs from now, many things will and anything can happen.
Have not got around to write a reflection for 2007 and my resolution for 2008, will have to do that soon. Right now I have an urge to write about...
The demonstration rally I went yesterday for Universal Suffrage for 2012.
Have particular strong feeling for this, not understanding why, perhaps it's in the blood. I am not the kind of person who heavily involve in politics, but I especially wanted to write tonight, before blogs like this can never be published, where opposing views can no longer be shared and people may get prosecuted because of critizing the government.
No doubt this will not happen dramatically, but gradually... without you even notice. One day you suddenly realise though, you have lost your real freedom of speech. By then, it's too late. Because you did not fight for your rights and freedom back then and had thought it's a waste of time or you thought you have better things to do.
When I first got to Victoria Park, I did not know what got into me, I nearly wanted to cry...My eyes were filled with tears. I was touched that there are still people who have the passion, to let the world know they have an ideal. My tears also speak of anguish and heartbreak when I know most ppl do not give a damn.
I perfectly know their reasons why. We are humans. Humans have failures. We are not saints. We do not even bothered to look beyond the corner if our needs can be satisfied momentarily. Who is going to care about my offsprings? I am gonna be dead in so XX number of years. I don't even care whether they can live or not, it's beyond my imagination and power, how on earth am I to care about whether they have freedom of not? What I care about is whether I live happily and have enough to survive.
That's sad. I shiver when I come to think in fact the majority of people in the world (in a smaller scale - HK) are like this.
Have not got around to write a reflection for 2007 and my resolution for 2008, will have to do that soon. Right now I have an urge to write about...
The demonstration rally I went yesterday for Universal Suffrage for 2012.
Have particular strong feeling for this, not understanding why, perhaps it's in the blood. I am not the kind of person who heavily involve in politics, but I especially wanted to write tonight, before blogs like this can never be published, where opposing views can no longer be shared and people may get prosecuted because of critizing the government.
No doubt this will not happen dramatically, but gradually... without you even notice. One day you suddenly realise though, you have lost your real freedom of speech. By then, it's too late. Because you did not fight for your rights and freedom back then and had thought it's a waste of time or you thought you have better things to do.
When I first got to Victoria Park, I did not know what got into me, I nearly wanted to cry...My eyes were filled with tears. I was touched that there are still people who have the passion, to let the world know they have an ideal. My tears also speak of anguish and heartbreak when I know most ppl do not give a damn.
I perfectly know their reasons why. We are humans. Humans have failures. We are not saints. We do not even bothered to look beyond the corner if our needs can be satisfied momentarily. Who is going to care about my offsprings? I am gonna be dead in so XX number of years. I don't even care whether they can live or not, it's beyond my imagination and power, how on earth am I to care about whether they have freedom of not? What I care about is whether I live happily and have enough to survive.
That's sad. I shiver when I come to think in fact the majority of people in the world (in a smaller scale - HK) are like this.
I wonder if having an ideal meaning being naive? Or should I just be mundane and becoming one of those selfish souless creatures who claim themselves human? One day perhaps my passion will fade, and my inner flame will get extinguished aftering seeing through the world, which you cannot help but sigh, and let the world goes around by itself.
Or an optimist as I am, my inner flame may still there, but I have learnt to hide it, fearing it might get discovered and laughed at. Either way, I still appear as someone who just sigh, and let the world goes around by itself.
It 's slightly comforting perhaps if thinking the unsupportive HK ppl do have the anguish and inner flame burning within, but unwilling to show it. Instead of thinking they are selfish gits.
Some ppl I saw yesterday were from mainland, they came to HK many years ago. They truly speak... they know how it was like back there back then. The reason why they came to HK and why they joined the rally. They are ppl who had gone through the tough times back then in china and that's why they do not want it again here in HK. They were disappointed in HK ppl for their delayed senses. Oh well...
Will the real "IT" ever come?
Monday, December 17, 2007
Another year end is coming...
Xmas is here again...have been spending quite a lot for getting presents for my family and friends... In fact, I havent yet bought enough, omg...I will be so broke after xmas... but it's always good to be the one who give :)
Having mixed feelings when it comes to xmas, I tend to think about how I spent each one during the past years... the happy ones, the not so happy ones... all were so memorable and formed part of me, I am so amazed by how fast time flies...and am hoping the coming xmases will all be happy ones.
Some updates:
1) Bro is arriving home for xmas hols tmr morning. Hurray!
2) Should start preparing for some stupid exams. .. Failed one last month by 1 question! Pass mark was 28 and I got 27!!! F**K! Retaking it this Sat. Two other exams in early Jan. Those should be easy.
3) Planning to write a blog entry on my 2007.
Having mixed feelings when it comes to xmas, I tend to think about how I spent each one during the past years... the happy ones, the not so happy ones... all were so memorable and formed part of me, I am so amazed by how fast time flies...and am hoping the coming xmases will all be happy ones.
Some updates:
1) Bro is arriving home for xmas hols tmr morning. Hurray!
2) Should start preparing for some stupid exams. .. Failed one last month by 1 question! Pass mark was 28 and I got 27!!! F**K! Retaking it this Sat. Two other exams in early Jan. Those should be easy.
3) Planning to write a blog entry on my 2007.
Monday, December 10, 2007
Feast of Love
Watched "Feast of Love" with Fa @ UA Time Square on Fri, and I was expecting it to be similar to "Love Actually", a light-hearted love comedy, but I was so wrong! Not saying I have made a mistake, in fact, I really enjoyed the movie and was so touched by it.
Not mentioning there are a bit of nudity and sex scenes (yes baby!), there are lines and plots which makes you laugh in amusement 'cos they are just so cheesy and the characters are so direct; also times when you really want to cry ( in fact I shed a few tears) 'cos you identify with what the characters would be feeling...the kind of movie which can send you back home with a lesson and some deep thoughts afterwards.
Lessons... 1) Be cautious and observant to the earliest signs around you to prevent mistakes being made in the future. 2) same type of ppl are destined to be with each other, it's just a matter of time and path they go through. 3)Love bravely.
I made a joke on one of the Freeman's monologues, it goes like this "There is a story about the Greek Gods; they were bored so they invented human beings, but they were still bored so they invented love, then they weren't bored any longer. So they decided to try love for themselves....." and at this point, I said to Fa, " and they eventually got bored again...so they invented SEX."
Awaiting "Enchanted"....
:)
Not mentioning there are a bit of nudity and sex scenes (yes baby!), there are lines and plots which makes you laugh in amusement 'cos they are just so cheesy and the characters are so direct; also times when you really want to cry ( in fact I shed a few tears) 'cos you identify with what the characters would be feeling...the kind of movie which can send you back home with a lesson and some deep thoughts afterwards.
Lessons... 1) Be cautious and observant to the earliest signs around you to prevent mistakes being made in the future. 2) same type of ppl are destined to be with each other, it's just a matter of time and path they go through. 3)Love bravely.
I made a joke on one of the Freeman's monologues, it goes like this "There is a story about the Greek Gods; they were bored so they invented human beings, but they were still bored so they invented love, then they weren't bored any longer. So they decided to try love for themselves....." and at this point, I said to Fa, " and they eventually got bored again...so they invented SEX."
Awaiting "Enchanted"....
:)
Thursday, October 04, 2007
Unbreak my heart
Love this so much~~~
"Un-break My Heart" - Toni Braxton
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=07U_uKGfv48
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights
when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart...My heart
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart...My heart
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry this tears
I cried so many, many nights
Un-break my...Un-break my heart
oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on....
"Un-break My Heart" - Toni Braxton
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=07U_uKGfv48
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights
when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart...My heart
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart...My heart
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry this tears
I cried so many, many nights
Un-break my...Un-break my heart
oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on....
Friday, September 14, 2007
Embrace challenges
Yes... That's what to be achieved... get on with it!
Dai Siu, thanks for the reminder .
NOT TO LOSE TEMPER SO EASILY!!!
I am not the kind of person who procrastinate... there's still a long way... a lot to learn... I need to be patient...but I fear people won't be patient with me...
My idealistic perfectionist character causes myself a lot of suffering...
Be tolerate!!! Change your mindset!!!
Dai Siu, thanks for the reminder .
NOT TO LOSE TEMPER SO EASILY!!!
I am not the kind of person who procrastinate... there's still a long way... a lot to learn... I need to be patient...but I fear people won't be patient with me...
My idealistic perfectionist character causes myself a lot of suffering...
Be tolerate!!! Change your mindset!!!
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Can we keep faith?
Some reflections after seeing Ms F last sunday. I was so glad to see her back in HK, and was expecting to hear good things happening. I felt pity after knowing what happened and my mind started going on and on in a loop. We shared many of our ups and downs in relationships before, and I just cannot believe for exactly the same reason, but with a different person...that it happened again...can guys have more lame reason than that?
Everytime we get broken hearted, we tell ourselves we will never be able to find someone we will love as much as the previous one(s), and that we will never be able to find THE ONE. The whole world turns grey and we live day to day as a living zombie. Usually when we have given up hopes, someone comes along amazingly and we start to think, "Perhaps, the one is still out there and thank god, he has finally come." Then we happily fall in love again, thinking it should be the last time....until ...when we get broken hearted again. The cycle repeats for x number of times, being proportional to the level of optimism one's got.
Hopefully we all learn from our experience. May Miss F recovers quickly and becomes stronger, and that we can both find the TRUE LOVE who we are destined to be with. Someone, who, has the maturity, committment and courage to share what life has to bring.
Perhaps it takes a life time to see the truth and beauty of TRUE LOVE.
Everytime we get broken hearted, we tell ourselves we will never be able to find someone we will love as much as the previous one(s), and that we will never be able to find THE ONE. The whole world turns grey and we live day to day as a living zombie. Usually when we have given up hopes, someone comes along amazingly and we start to think, "Perhaps, the one is still out there and thank god, he has finally come." Then we happily fall in love again, thinking it should be the last time....until ...when we get broken hearted again. The cycle repeats for x number of times, being proportional to the level of optimism one's got.
Hopefully we all learn from our experience. May Miss F recovers quickly and becomes stronger, and that we can both find the TRUE LOVE who we are destined to be with. Someone, who, has the maturity, committment and courage to share what life has to bring.
Perhaps it takes a life time to see the truth and beauty of TRUE LOVE.
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Realisation of Dreams
Being capable in doing something does not mean you would enjoy doing it. If you do not enjoy it, it's very hard to change the attitude to become the opposite.
When reaching the stage where one has worked for awhile, one starts to formulate about workplace, prospects, effort vs reward etc. Being in a role where you see different kind of people everyday can really teach one a lot about human behaviours, and will eventually appreciate individual differences.
I do not like drilling on endless documentation. But if get given a better compensation/reward, perhaps it can heal my imbalance psyche for a bit and not feeling so low.
Through the transition from branch back to office, I realise my interests in fact lie in frontline, into a PEOPLE business...
Perhaps the time will very soon arrive when I set off to realise my dreams. Where hopefully...effort will equal to physical rewards.
When reaching the stage where one has worked for awhile, one starts to formulate about workplace, prospects, effort vs reward etc. Being in a role where you see different kind of people everyday can really teach one a lot about human behaviours, and will eventually appreciate individual differences.
I do not like drilling on endless documentation. But if get given a better compensation/reward, perhaps it can heal my imbalance psyche for a bit and not feeling so low.
Through the transition from branch back to office, I realise my interests in fact lie in frontline, into a PEOPLE business...
Perhaps the time will very soon arrive when I set off to realise my dreams. Where hopefully...effort will equal to physical rewards.
Lessons
People in general talk, they say many things to achieve their purposes or fulfilling their agenda, no matter they are ill-intended or not. One must be careful in deciphering the codes and not falling into traps where one can easily be taken advantages of.
Everyone is an individual. It is up to every single person to decide how to run their own life. When seeking advice, it is important to bear in mind that. What other people has chosen to do might not fit your plan, aspirations and capability. The ultimate question to answer is, "What do you want to achieve in your life and what is best suited to your personality?"
Everyone is an individual. It is up to every single person to decide how to run their own life. When seeking advice, it is important to bear in mind that. What other people has chosen to do might not fit your plan, aspirations and capability. The ultimate question to answer is, "What do you want to achieve in your life and what is best suited to your personality?"
Monday, August 20, 2007
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