Sleepless...
Simply have no courage to say or to do what I want to say or do.
Make believe that he does not care anymore. The damage is done. Whether I wish him HAPPY BIRTHDAY or not just won't make a difference. He won't come back. I might well not say it. Cos if he replies with "Thanks", seeing his replied msg will just lead my heart to sink once again. What's the point?
Sometimes, doctor cannot cure own illness...
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
All the best Glenn!!!
Really really really hope that little bro (actually he's not little anymore) will pass his exams. And hope that he's not putting too much stress on himself... May he keep well. Amen.
Monday, April 30, 2007
Friday, April 27, 2007
Rollercoaster...
Over the past month, my emotions raged. Being thrown from heaven to hell might not be the best description, but it did feel like that literally...
Work wise, it is going well. Some of my friends ask me why I am hanging around there. Some said I should go back to the UK, either to work or study. For now, I enjoy my job. Even though the job itself does not pay well, nor is it heavily intellectually demanding, it gives you insight into hardship, the harsh reality and the sometimes the worst of human behaviours. It also trains ur EQ, flexibility and decision making skills. Perhaps, one can get insight from almost anything, provided you think about it philosophically enough. That's the art of sales, making extraordinary out of the ordinary.
Have never felt so let down before, by someone who I have considered to be the one...turns out to be just another short term affair. What can I say??? Nothing. What? For my best interests? Come on, I am so sick of such EXCUSES. When passion fades, little miss sunshine loses her magic subsequently. Many tears were shed and my 14 day AL throughout Easter in some way got totally ruined. I got way better when work started again. It takes my mind off--- besides, my friendsssssssss & colleagues are simply fab!!! No matter they are here in HK or faraway in the UK, they are just fantastic mates, so lovely and supportive. I doubt I can recover so quickly without them.
I love U (and it includes you, you and you....and you...and you....(endless list))!!! :)
Afterall, I still feel so lucky and blessed. Thanks.
Work wise, it is going well. Some of my friends ask me why I am hanging around there. Some said I should go back to the UK, either to work or study. For now, I enjoy my job. Even though the job itself does not pay well, nor is it heavily intellectually demanding, it gives you insight into hardship, the harsh reality and the sometimes the worst of human behaviours. It also trains ur EQ, flexibility and decision making skills. Perhaps, one can get insight from almost anything, provided you think about it philosophically enough. That's the art of sales, making extraordinary out of the ordinary.
Have never felt so let down before, by someone who I have considered to be the one...turns out to be just another short term affair. What can I say??? Nothing. What? For my best interests? Come on, I am so sick of such EXCUSES. When passion fades, little miss sunshine loses her magic subsequently. Many tears were shed and my 14 day AL throughout Easter in some way got totally ruined. I got way better when work started again. It takes my mind off--- besides, my friendsssssssss & colleagues are simply fab!!! No matter they are here in HK or faraway in the UK, they are just fantastic mates, so lovely and supportive. I doubt I can recover so quickly without them.
I love U (and it includes you, you and you....and you...and you....(endless list))!!! :)
Afterall, I still feel so lucky and blessed. Thanks.
Friday, April 06, 2007
千億個夜晚
Will my loneliness ever gonna subside?
＊再次看你一眼
然後靜靜獨自遠行 WOO
前面是個孤單既夜晚
四處也覺冰冷
離別路上步步困難 WOO
長夜待我空虛裡習慣
＃誰願回看憂鬱的眼
舊事沒法平淡
偏偏要裝作平淡
憑著忘記將它沖淡
但是易說難辦
歲月已印在眉間
＋忽忽光陰如幻
天天空虛無限
落寞的雙眼
前面尚有千億個夜晚
OH 終於歸於平淡
茫茫然走向
埋沒著我一生既夜晚
REPEAT ＊＃＋＋％
LONELY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE
LONELY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE
茫茫然走向 埋沒著我一生既夜晚
REPEAT ％
LONELY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE
LONELY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE
ALWAYS BY MY SIDE
LONELY WON'T LET ME FALL IN LOVE
OH EVERYWHERE I GO
ALWAYS BY MY SIDE
LONELY WON'T LET ME FALL IN LOVE
＊再次看你一眼
然後靜靜獨自遠行 WOO
前面是個孤單既夜晚
四處也覺冰冷
離別路上步步困難 WOO
長夜待我空虛裡習慣
＃誰願回看憂鬱的眼
舊事沒法平淡
偏偏要裝作平淡
憑著忘記將它沖淡
但是易說難辦
歲月已印在眉間
＋忽忽光陰如幻
天天空虛無限
落寞的雙眼
前面尚有千億個夜晚
OH 終於歸於平淡
茫茫然走向
埋沒著我一生既夜晚
REPEAT ＊＃＋＋％
LONELY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE
LONELY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE
茫茫然走向 埋沒著我一生既夜晚
REPEAT ％
LONELY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE
LONELY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE
ALWAYS BY MY SIDE
LONELY WON'T LET ME FALL IN LOVE
OH EVERYWHERE I GO
ALWAYS BY MY SIDE
LONELY WON'T LET ME FALL IN LOVE
Goodbye
Goodbye- Air Supply
Dedicate this song to myself... This might well be the best song to illustrate what you really want to say...
I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much more
I can feel your heart and I simpathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure i'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say goodbye
Dedicate this song to myself... This might well be the best song to illustrate what you really want to say...
I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much more
I can feel your heart and I simpathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure i'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say goodbye
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Lucky
Can never express thoroughly how grateful I feel towards everything happened so far in my life. Although slightly uneventful, it is peaceful. It's so peaceful that I start wondering if I should carry on like this...
Having gone through 23 years so far in a loving and supportive family, getting the world's best education, landed with a relatively nice first job in a big corporate without much effort, I just can't help feeling lucky. What's more I can't appreciate less is that my colleagues and seniors at both DH and KT branch are truly fantastic and nice. They are great workmates and friends, with a to-do attitude. What more can I ask for?
Deepdown I know I should push hard. Yet how to become someone I am not? Ironically, I can't figure out the question "Is this me?" myself.
Seems like I am still wasting time, burning my youth...or am I NOT? Does making a lot of dash means one is not wasting time?
Having gone through 23 years so far in a loving and supportive family, getting the world's best education, landed with a relatively nice first job in a big corporate without much effort, I just can't help feeling lucky. What's more I can't appreciate less is that my colleagues and seniors at both DH and KT branch are truly fantastic and nice. They are great workmates and friends, with a to-do attitude. What more can I ask for?
Deepdown I know I should push hard. Yet how to become someone I am not? Ironically, I can't figure out the question "Is this me?" myself.
Seems like I am still wasting time, burning my youth...or am I NOT? Does making a lot of dash means one is not wasting time?
Monday, January 22, 2007
10 years since...
It has been 10 years since my last funfair at HYS, my last one was 1997, before I leave for the UK. Missed it last year due to my oversight, so glad to be able to visit HYS again after so long and with my love~~~
Thx B gor gor for the flower.
Overly impressed by the creativity and artistic ability of the students there. The stall designs are just superb!
Thx B gor gor for the flower.
Overly impressed by the creativity and artistic ability of the students there. The stall designs are just superb!
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Year End/Start Reflections
1) I just realised I am a heavily result-driven person. (Through helping out Lianna's wedding dress. I only feel relieved and happy when i know it fits and she likes it. I feel so uneasy before then!) It makes me starting to believe I should be a sales.
2) It's time to end my sadness due to Mr. T, it's taken me so long to recover. Thanks for those who helped me getting through along the way. I am gradually able to see what "love" is supposed to be. Thx, Mr. C.
3) I will sort my priorities out a.s.a.p. I think I have drifted for too long. With love, one would think one can conquer the world. :)
4)Work harder! Stop wasting time! I have wasted enough time for the past year and a half... time to kick some arses...
2) It's time to end my sadness due to Mr. T, it's taken me so long to recover. Thanks for those who helped me getting through along the way. I am gradually able to see what "love" is supposed to be. Thx, Mr. C.
3) I will sort my priorities out a.s.a.p. I think I have drifted for too long. With love, one would think one can conquer the world. :)
4)Work harder! Stop wasting time! I have wasted enough time for the past year and a half... time to kick some arses...
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
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