I miss KT branch.

Oh... where is Wong Sir...??? He's holding the camera...


















Where is Dee and Bau Bau????
I miss u all!!!

Dry

...feeling so dry...every aspects of my life is stagnant right now.

HeHe (big sis) n I have the same feeling... how to deal with it...rationally we know what we should do. We just gotta support each other n not falling into those traps again. However...we have our weaknesses and needs... like headaches *wink wink*... how to cure?

R U READY?

Yesterday was my last day at KT branch... Because I was off on Friday, and many people were off on Saturday, my colleagues got me a farewell gift on Thurs...It was a Swarovski necklace. That was so sweet of them! I love it very much!! Thanks everyone!! Yesterday afterwork, 4 of us (Mr. A, Ms L, Hehe and I) went to TST Sushi-one for dinner...it was delicious...but I got stomach-ache afterwards!!! I had to see the doctor today.

Hope I feel well enough for work tmr...back to DH 6/F.

On a separate note, my brother got me the new Eric Suen CD yesterday...haha...so touching!!! He remembers my random comments on wanting to get the CD.

Compromise

The end of this week will mark the end of my stay at branch...really hope this week can last a little longer...this half a year has been so happy, the teamwork spirit amazes me...argh...

Come to think about "big sis", I regard this friendship is so special, still remembering the first MMO activity I did at branch was with her. We walked around KT and gave out business cards, FaiChun and pens to merchants and estate agents...at that time we hadnt known each other well yet...but we could both sense the other person would be fun to hang out with....haha...then things just go funnily coincidentally similar...and sometimes we think about the same things and have similar feelings on certain people :) and now we both have "baubau" as our "godmother"... We will keep this for sure yeah?

I shall not think too much...just welcome and challenges ahead and stay focus!

Was browsing my facebook, then saw a gal-friend of mine who just got engaged. The pair broke up a few years back, and at that time it was so detrimental for the gal, and I thought it was a shame. For the two were so happy together, while I was happily with Mr. T too. Recently they got back together, I do not know the details, but perhaps the gal was bold enough to make the sacrifice for the guy and move to study in the guy's home country. When I saw the two getting back together and getting engaged, I started to wonder if this will ever happen to me at all....

come home

Does he remember just 2 weeks ago, after disappearing after dinner for a movie without letting me know, then didnt come home til 2 something am caused me so much anxiety?

"Although u have left a msg, we still worry about you."

Just totally has no idea why he suddenly got so angry.

So sad... when will he understand our love n care? HO MO LOI and I cant help crying so much these few days. If he still cares about this sister of his, he should come back and say sorry.

Sigh...always get broken-hearted by guys...even the one closest to you...I am hopeless.

You are not the only person who live in this world

Havent felt so angry, disappointed, heart-broken and dispaired for a long long time and of course the person who can do this to you is someone is the dearest to your heart.

What he wrote pierced into our hearts so deeply, like a sword. I felt the world was suddenly turning like crazy in front of me, I almost faint and I could not think for a moment.

You are not the only person who has self-esteem (尊嚴). I have 尊嚴 too. If you seriously think that 500 dollars mean so much to you and lacking it for one day makes you unable to live, and worths you blaming the whole family, then I apologise. BUT I am not an ATM, you do not just press a button and I have money coming out of my mouth. How on the f**king earth I know u r f**king running out of money? You need to tell me so that I can get cash! If you did not tell me how am I supposed to know? And suddenly out of the blue blaming the whole family like owing you the whole world.

The anger and dispair I felt was much greater than losing a lover, it is not the kind of sadness that will hinder me from working, but my heart is so broken that you start to think although you have tried your best to care about somebody,that certain somebody does not even appreciate what you do for him. His thoughts are totally twisted, mis-interpreting others' behaviour of love and care. I think it's normal that every parents would worry about their children's academic and personal well being, as well as a noble character. But why on earth does he think like that? No parents would think unworthy of their children.

I had the money ready in my wallet, waiting to give him. This morning we were both getting ready to leave for work by the sofa, I was ready before he did, but I didnt leave, instead I sat on the sofa, looking dazed. 'Cos I was waiting, waiting for him to say "I am sorry, my words were a bit too strong last night". Then I would give him the money.

You are not the only the person who is alive in this world. We also have feelings, we are not ur accessories, we are not here for you to exploit. The feeling we get is that no matter how hard we try to please him, it is worthless and not needed at all. We don't even need to exist. You are not really mature if you never learn to be considerate, think from others' persective, respect others. Also to admit own's mistakes.

"Sorry" should not be a hard thing to say if you mean it.

Afterwork streetside dimsum

Not sure when I have to bid farewell to my KT colleagues...Gonna miss every single one of them!!! All of them have given me some insights and inspirations regarding life, relationship, career, management etc. through many little incidents which happened during the past half a year...If I had gone to a different branch, I am sure everything would have been so much different for me. Today afterwork, went to eat streetside dimsums with big sis, miss sexy long leg, Yu and Dee...yummy!!! I will always remember this very night! :)

Hope for the Best

After talking to Candy, finally made up my mind. My brother got the call from HR this afternoon that he will be starting his Summer Assistant job tmr right away. GOOD LUCK! I wonder if it is because I made this decision in the morning, so that bro can start? Then he and I wont be under the same boss?

I will soon be parted with my beloved KT colleagues... I will miss them
I tell myself...I must get somewhere better off...asap...or I never will.

Crossroads

Still have not yet contact my ex-boss even I had promised him I would call on Sat. In my opinion, whether I call on Sat or tmr first thing in the morning wouldnt make a difference. The thing is...I really cannot decide.

What's awaiting is gonna be way more challenging, the hours seem to be worse but the monetary reward isnt guaranteed to be increasing...The reasons to justify the move are it will be better for career development, plus can lend a helping hand to my HO colleagues to ease their workload, who I enjoyed working with anyway. On the otherhand, for the past half a year, I had the privilege to work with a bunch of wonderful ppl at branch which I will miss so much if I do move...ARGH...To complicate the matter, I am comtemplating some changes. :)

Tomorrow will have an answer.

p.s. I m missing terribly the sashimi from hokkaido.

6/30 --> 7/1/2007

The last day of Q2 was ended with much laughter.

We did well even we lost 3 business days cos of the hokkaido trip. See? KT is invincible! We just got so annoyed having to do so many support DD when we obviously had not yet met our targets!!! -_-""""

Updates on the change of DSA team...seems like the change is not gonna be huge and my "favourite" top sales could stay...haha...this is crucial to our targets!!!! Thank god.

In the evening, the whole team plus our ex-colleagues joined us for Karaoke at YoPark in Whampoa. It is so sweet seeing my "Godmum" with her kids n husband, big sis and I are so envious (we both want kids!!!) ...The night was packed with much singing and fun. When Mr. A sang 顏福偉 - 愛多八十年 and 徐小明- 青春痘, we all broke into hysterics...btw, 青春痘 is one of my favourite too. He also sang one particular song which somehow triggered my tears, big sis immediately distracted me by playing some drinking games with me and told me to forget about the bad guy. Suddenly she became so strong...I know it's becos he was there...she must appear to be tough. Thx for supporting. On the whole, the evening was enjoyable, though an inevitable feeling of emptiness suddenly hit me when I got home and I had no idea why.

I think my bro is superb!!! He is getting more mature and he phoned me at midnight and asked if I wanted to be picked up. He worried about me walking back home on my own as it is so quiet... GOOD BOY!!! Big sis kept telling my colleagues that my brother is very handsome...haha...and he became shy!!!

I suddenly had some flashbacks on the same night 10 years ago. I was on a service trip with the Girl Guide to maintain the general order of the handover concert at Tiramar. That night was rainy too. It is in September in the same year that I left HK for studying in a boarding school in the UK after completing Secondary 2 in HK. What's coming in the next 10 yrs? Just see what life is gonna bring me.