Sunday, September 12, 2010

Reading...

"The natural human drive towards pleasure will motivate your subconscious to find exactly what you want; simple 'cold' visualisation, without the joyous emotion is unlikely to work as effectively."

"Visualisation can help you excel in just about anything you want to. All you have to do is imagine yourself in the appropriate mode, looking exactly as you want to feel, behaving exactly as you want to behave - and succeeding."

"Nowadays, it is a firmly held psychological principle that what you rehearse in your mind is more readily available to you in real life, and visualisation coupled with deep relaxation or hypnosis is perhaps the most effective form of mind rehearsal that is available to us."

"The best way for you to feel comfortable and at ease within yourself is to simply let go of the negative associations......If you want to hang on to hate, jealousy, anger or whatever because you do not see why you should 'let somebody off';, then that is obviously entirely up to you. It make no difference to the object of your negativity, but it will severely diminish your own chances of happiness or success. How can you be happy with negative feelings inside you?"

The 'Swish' technique

"There are 4 rules that need to be observed if you are to achieve you aims. Those rules are:

1) The goal must be plausible, possible and realistic.
2) It must be suitable for your personality type.
3) You must have a clear idea of what you are seeking.
4) Positive thinking and positive doing. "

"Resistance issues are caused by a conflict of interests. What will you do when you have achieved your goal - what will life be like then? If you don't know have not felt it, dreamt of it, then you simply do not want it badly enough. You have to really want the outcome of your plans, absolutely and unconditionally, or there will be a negative thought process at work, deep in the subconscious, that will hinder you."

Monday, February 01, 2010

Gamble

Have not had much Gambler's luck, yet the stubborn Gambler is gambling again with ALL the stakes...

Ending with another Total Failure to a full bankruptcy, or, perhaps, Luck will turn and favour the Gambler this time round?

We will see...

Friday, October 16, 2009

You can save that dude

Whether "you" are ever gonna read this,

I actually no longer save your number in my phone, and have no intention to reply your text(s).

My birthday just passed was actually fantastic, there is actually someone who does care about me and put in real effort in making me happy. Well, you don't need to know.

Unlike that cheap manipulative bitch, I don't try to save a safeline for coming back later. When I break up, I break up clean. No ambiguity nor entanglements. So that you know, when you lose me, you lose me forever. And that's your loss. Not mine. I am certain about that.

Keep well,
A

p.s Please return me the HKSI notes, CFA books and my calculator. I actually still need them.
You can drop the stuff at my lobby with the guard for my pick up. As for other stuff, you may either return/ throw away at your discretion.

Sunday, October 04, 2009

Living Happily Ever After

A Brand New Life since Aug 2009.

Speed of recovery reaches new heights. Proof of maturity.

For the self-centred ones who showed no self-reflection, only knew about placing blames on others, and wasted my 2 yrs, are now at my lowest priority and irrelevant.

Supportive family, friends, mentors are all I must thank for. Let me fall and learn, their counsel is precious.

Feeling so loved, blessed and at peace with myself since, and time just swifts by. Filling my life with simple pleassure and confident living.

There is soooooo much I am looking forward to nowadays and I wanna share it with a certain somebody. The person who has been fuelling me with support, motivation and love, who has made me wanting to reciprocate. You know who you are.

Now fearless, I am going to give my best shot.

Saturday, August 01, 2009

My Interpretation

This suits perfectly for how I feel...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3OOf2hb4Wz8

My Interpretation --- Mika

You talk about life, you talk about death,
And everything in between,
Like it's nothing, and the words are easy.
You talk about me, and you talk about you,
And everything I do,
Like it's something, that needs repeating.
I don't need an alibi or for you to realize,
The things we left unsaid,
Are only taking space up in our head.
Make it my fault, win the game
Point the finger, place the blame
It does me up and down,
It doesn't matter now.

[CHORUS]
'Cause I don't care if I ever talk to you again.
This is not about emotion,
I don't need a reason not to care what you say,
Or what happened in the end.
This is my interpretation,
And it don't, don't make sense.


The first two weeks turn into ten,
I hold my breath and wonder when it'll happen,
Does it really matter?
If half of what you said is true,
And half of what I didn't do could be different,
Would it make it better?
If we forget the things we know.
Would we have somewhere to go?
The only way is down, I can see that now.

[CHORUS]

It's really not such a sacrifice

[CHORUS]

And it don't have to make no sense to you at all,
'Cause this is my interpretation, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Taking Charge --- of my problems !?

Yes, everything and anything --- is MY PROBLEM.

Things do not work out as planned...is MY PROBLEM.

Not being able to let go of emotions and standards...resulting in stress and poor health... is also OWN F**KING PROBLEM.

I am starting to like this phrase "MY PROBLEM". My new cliche. I am loving it.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

I will treasure you

I still cant comprehend, the fact that my family and I will not be going to Kwun Tong to have dinner with grandma (mama) anymore. It was all too sudden.

The memory is still so vivid. The phone call at almost 2am of Dec13, the taxi ride to hospital, the sight which I will never forget... She just looked as if she was asleep when in fact she has already left us.

Since that night then, every night, I get flash back of my childhood memories when mama and I hung out, we made dinner together, watched cartoons together and discussed about the characters in the cartoon....that was when I was really little. Then mama got older and didnt have the energy to play with me...so we sort of not talking as much, only brief conversations at family dinners sometimes.
She left... I regret not going to have dinner with her 2 weeks ago (I got a cold and was at work til almost 9 that day) ...It's all too late now.
It has been 10 yrs since we last lost someone in the family. Now that I am older, I start to think about what other people close to me might be feeling. I feel their pain too.
Life is really fragile. Don't take the people you love for granted. They might be gone so unexpectedly one day....
So I said to myself... "I will treasure everyone around me."

Friday, July 18, 2008

Better In Time

Better In Time - Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know

If you didn't notice
you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it

If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time.

Monday, June 30, 2008

Exactly the same words...

I do not know exactly the cause of my agitation these days. Perhaps, it's the same emotions... the Fear of going through the same things which happened to me 3 years ago. I would still consider that as the most detrimental thing happened to me ever. I do not wish it to happen again.

It is different this time. As long as I don't let my emotions get me, everything should work out and be fine.

Be confident, gal.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Torn

I am torn.

The only way to overcome it is to grow up. Be cold and be bold. Hypnotize yourself.

You need to get toughen up anyways, why not now?