Who says there will be sunshine all along?

Who says there will be sunshine all along our way and we will be happy everafter?

There are times, when the sky gets cloudy and we can't see what's ahead of us because it's foggy. Not a matter of BELIEVE, but as a matter of fact, we will soon see the SILVER LINING, and the SUN will be out again in no time, and we would be able to feel the warmth again. Perhaps we are going and will go through many of such periods of time, but the fact is, it will only get better when u r at a down point. Let's remind ourselves (or me in particular), THERE WILL ALWAYS BE TOMORROW and HAVE FAITH.

We cannot be calculative all the time, if it's the case, it's not LOVE. Though I understand LOVE is also about letting your loved ones to pursue their dreams and ambitions, and cannot solely be satisfying your very own needs and desires; and that, it takes one to be able to analyse what's the best way to balance both views. I do hope that things will eventually work out. In fact, not just hope, I WANT things to work out at the end. I will never succumb to the REALITY. That's the DETERMINATION shown by a VIRGO. You might say I am STUBBORN. Even I might be upset now, and have negative thoughts about giving up, I will not cease to fight. I am a fighter!

As long as you still have the determination like I do, things will be fine. BE BOLD. Afterall, happiness is very subjective.

I do struggle between duty and something? (DUTY VS U) The fact that I have been away from home for so long, I feel I have this duty to pay back, to be a useful person, giving something back to the society, because I am thankful for my parents. Without them, I wont be at where I am now. Whenever I think about my parents, tears would soak my eyes. On the other hand, I want to be with you too. How to choose? How not to disappoint 3 parties (perhaps more?)? How to achieve the best outcome without causing any dismay to anybody? Is it possible? How to define the best outcome?

I want to take the risk and gamble if I am just myself, but I am not just myself. INDIVIDUAL AUTONOMY VS PRINCIPLED AUTONOMY...

I just need more time, I am not intending to trap you. PLEASE WAIT FOR ME.

Love this song very much, this kind of love is too altruistic, though it's an ideal, but I don't think I could do it. Let me try to translate it.

祝君好　張智霖 曲/Cho Kyu Man 詞/周禮茂 編/黃丹儀
聽　你不斷呼叫我 Hark! You continuously yearning for me,
劃破　寧靜　我的心下墜 breaks the silence, my heart sinks
在難過　講　不出愛沒結果 So sad, love unspoken urequited
口和唇　緊緊閉鎖 Mouth and lips are sealed
哭　也一話都不說 I’d rather cry than to say anything
害怕　連累　你一生日月 Fear that I would bog u down for life
憾無缺　只差跟你曾遇過 No regret since we have met
給過你　太多波折 Given u too many obstacles

＊寧願沒擁抱　共你可到老(能夠終老) I’d rather have no embraces but could be with u when u r old
任由你　來去自如在我心底仍愛慕 I’d still love and admire u even letting u go
如若碰到　他比我好 If I encounter him and find out he’s better than me
只望 I will just look
停在遠處　祝君安好 from far away, wishing you well
雖不可(多麼想)　親口細訴 though I couldn’t tell u this in person.

說　太多話我想說 To speak, I have too much to say
但我　還是　要啞口道別 but I’d still depart in silence
任由我　天空海闊流著血 Just let me bleed in this big wide world
只要你　白似冰雪 All I want is you to be immaculate as snow.Repeat ＊

Yes, I am not this kind. I hope I could, but my moral standard hasn't become so advanced yet. If things don't work out, I don't want to know how u get on with life, who u r with , how many kids u r having etc. If i say i dun give a damn, the fact is, I do and I always will. I will be in eternal pain. If this happens, I DON'T WANNA KNOW. I will do my best to erase all the memories we once shared and cut u off completely from my life. And then I will lack the ability to love anyone ever again.

Well, sound like a pretty extreme thing to say at 2.30am in the morning, but this is the last say, I won't let myself thinking about this thing until after my exams. Afterall, it's just the situation we are loathing, not the person~ :P (thank god)