Adolescence/Puberty?

Adolescence/Puberty, I have not yet distinguished the exact difference in meaning between the two words, I think they are identical in meaning, and the worst thing is that at the moment I just couldn't be bothered to find out!

What is SLEEP to do with PUBERTY?

I have read this amazing article in Apple Daily Today, it is a summary of an English Scientific finding...it simply says that if one has problems going to bed early and likes going to bed late, then having problems getting up early in the morning, it means that one has not passed the stage of puberty. Since the implication of finding was that once one passes adolescence, one will want to go to bed early and have a very regular sleeping pattern. I couldn't help but wonder, perhaps I still havent finished growing~ (but I am already 21?) that's why I can't help sleeping late and getting up late??? I must tell Kai about this. "HEY, GUESS WHAT? WE ARE STILL GROWING!!!"

OK, This might also explain that I am not mature enough to deal with all these issues with life! (work...I am not coping!) Perhaps looking on the good side, it means that there are still rooms for me to grow! But at the moment, I am annoyed with myself for being so easily distracted (I think I have attention deficit disorder, or some kind of concentration problem). I do not want to but I am wasting time! I really thought I have got through my depression, but why I still can't get my motivation level up? Am I just lazy? I must engage myself with some form of mentally exhausting activity from now on, to keep myself busy and stop thinking too many irrelevant things.

Otherwise, I felt happy being able to talk to my family today. My brother is just becoming more and more handsome, now there are gals after him! Haha, as a sister, I feel pretty proud~~
I was expecting a great told-off from mum 'cos of my crazy xmas shopping, but in fact, she did not scold me, it seemed that she understood how unhappy I was during the past month, and I was surprised! She also told me to see doctor if I feel anything wrong with my body, and asked if I have been going to the gym. She said that health is the most important assets. I felt so touched, and that I believe my family loves me the way I am, and that their love for me is unconditional. They have clothed me, fed me, educated me (which seriously has costed a lot in these few years). But I worry that what if I cannot cope here even I have done my best, will I fail their hopes and becoming a burden for them?

How I wish I could just be a machine and work all the time, that's why I really admire people who work hard...like my darling, who could be so single-minded, and not so easily distracted. He is destined for great things. Somehow, I just feel that I still have a long way to go, to learn how to focus. Will I ever get there? Surely people will say ,"You will get there eventually. (You will just need to believe that you can do it.)" While I could put myself out there and try really hard, I cannot help having doubts about what if I fail to achieve that? Does that mean I am a worthless piece of shit? While we know that we are the product of our gene and environment, and I think I have inherited some LAZY or LAID BACK genes...I just hope the environment could be so influential that it would pull me away from my laziness.

Today I finished watching Sex and The City Season 4...