Saturday, January 29, 2005

When nothing goes right...

Haven't blogged for awhile. Since my last blog entry, I have had two weeks of lectures.

I have been more organised this term, I fetch my readings straight after lectures (though not necessarily have read them), at least I have made some efforts in getting myself sorted. I have not yet caught up with the essays (which I dunno why I could not muster any words out of myself for so long), but I will do (very soon!) I will also get my dissertation sorted! I have got tonnes of catching up to do!!!!

Nothing seems to go right for me this year, just rejections after rejections, failures after failures...Can an optimistic person be able to keep up the morale after so much frustration?

Maybe my time hasn't come yet.

Last week I had a meeting with my Tutor/Director of Studies (same person for me), she advised me not to apply for clinical this year because I will be severely disadvantaged among other applicants as I will only be a fresh grad. Moreover, I will be wasting too much time on application when I should be spending time with academic work. I told her my worries and I cried!!! OMG....She thinks I am putting too much pressure on myself, jumping hurdles after hurdles. She reckons I should take time off after graduation and start everything afresh from then on. Afterwards, I had a chat with my parents and they are absolutely supportive!!! Mummy simply says that she doesn't care whether I find a job or not that soon, since she is not waiting for me to feed the family. I should take everything slowly and just concentrate at what I am doing currently....and then do what would be best for my career aspirations...(like finding proper clinical work experience) She just want me to be happy and not feel pressurised...I was so touched!!!!

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