1 week...Mentalising...

Why the heck i m counting down to my dying day?

I havent done much...studied loads of stats, and experimental design...

Another crazy thought...

Can someone just be evil/mean naturally? Or one has to be intentionally evil/mean?
"Naturally" as in this quality is inborn, the person has a very mean personality in general, but he/she only recognises this when he/she reaches an age of maturity. The other case would be that evilness/ mean attitude is slowly being acquired, not present at birth. Haha...this is a silly question, not particularly constructive, as it's debatable, like most other psychological/philosophical debate, another nature/nuture controversy. Most researchers stand the middle position, it's either 50:50, or each factor contributes a proportion of how we become. Even if there's evidence from genetic studies that genes do play a role in a trait, it's more like a disposition of higher chance being shaped by a particular environment factor, not like "if u have this gene, u will for sure to show this particular trait."

Anyway, that's actually not what I was really thinking about. I was thinking about how frequently we second guess about others, and how unhealthy it could be. The above question comes into play at some point. Ok, say, you second guess about someone being mean (intentionally) to you, not that you care really, but it bugs you somehow. While, in fact, that certain someone is not even awared that he/she is pissing you off, he/she has not even been mean at all. Misunderstanding causes you to second guess someone with ill intention. This is the problem. Because in order to have such second guesses, you must be ill-intentioned enough to be able to attribute such mental states that others might/might not be having. Thus, when one is able to think bad of others, one is also capable of such "bad" deeds. Are they signs of sophistication, cynicism? Yet, possessing such qualities doesn't mean one is a bad person, it's like knowing how to kill someone doesn't mean you have to go around killing people (stupid analogy)...Second guessing perhaps can come either intuitively or voluntarily. I am thinking, some people are born with this talent of second guessing (either correctly/incorrectly) , well, u can call it mentalising, this is what i mean by automatic. They are born streetwise and cunning. Some other people, rather being born with this skill, they gradually pick it up as they go through life, that's what I mean by acquiring the skill voluntarily. Or...perhaps the first kind of people i mentioned dont really have this skills inborn, just that they master this skill much faster and proficient than any other average people.

Tonight i m talking shit.