1 month

ONE more month to go and it will be over...so OVER..GAME OVER.

Havent updated my blog for awhile, these days I have been working like a mad woman on my dissertation. I am pleased and relieved now because I just handed it in today perfectly on time. It was mad...I underestimated the workload, and it had taken me much longer than I thought! The deadline was 4pm today, I was still working on my first draft 3 days ago!!!!!!!!! I got my first draft done at 7pm on Friday 29th April, emailed it to my supervisor, who is the head of my department..a Professor!!!! I apologised for getting my first draft so late, hoping that he would kindly read it...not that I had much hope anyway. Because he could have said I had been too late and refused to read it. Luckily, he did get back to me very promptly (within 4 hours!) My gosh, so fast!!!!!!!!!! His position as the Head of Department and Professor is well-deserved man!!! Incredible! He emailed me and said "Yes, you are a bit late. But you have produced in my view a very good dissertation...." He then suggested a few points how I could improve on my work. I was thrilled! All these times I think so shitty about myself and the work I do...The approval of the Head of Department (a renowned researcher) was indeed a highlight of my month!

After finishing my first draft of my dissertation, I watched "Bride and Prejudice", thanks F for the CD! I love it to bits...all the music, singing and dances, so uplifting...and I am starting to like indians now...Aishwarya Rai is sooooooooo beautiful, she was Miss World 1994 and she is just amazing and charming...she is indeed the most beautiful woman alive on earth as Julia Roberts said. I also like Naveen Andrews, what a handsome, charming indian.

Nothing much happened in April yet so much seemed to have happened. The whole month I have been working on that dissertation...I started going to church again, but skipped 2 weeks ( I was in london for the sunday before last, and then I was too tired to get up for the sunday just past)...oops...must go again this sunday. My faith goes up and down, my view on my relationship also goes up and down too. I am not even sure whether I am hopeful or not, and I dont seem to care anymore which is scary. I am changing... becoming more and more cynical, but not yet know what is to become of me. I wonder how darling feels right now? I am getting mad just becos I am too sick of everything and exams are coming? POSSIBLY.I want to maintain my sanity...

Today is gonna be my last day to "hea" as I just finished my dissertation, tomorrow I will start to work really hard. So I don't know when I will update this because I really should focus on my work now... My exams start on 28th May and ends on 3rd June. I need luck...just give me 60% so that I can get a 2 i.....it's all I want. PLS~~~~~